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I know I have not been updating of late. Hell, I barely tweet - I just troll and like tweets more than tweeting. Regardless, got an issue I just need to let go off my chest.

So there's this fb appeal for this algerian toddler/infant who has hydrocephalus and spinal bifida. They are canvassing for funds and I got 'invited' to help donate. thanks?

Main issue though is this appeal for 28 thousand euros for a surgery. I'm skeptical about it. Having looked through the facts online, I found out that such patients normally do not live beyond what, 10 years of age? Would this surgery help or would it impend the family? And yes, it is NOT a cure.

It's an ethical issue - by prolonging the life of this disabled child through such an expensive method it would further throw the family into the depths of financial hardship. I know, I know that every parents wants the best for their child, that every life borned deserves a chance to live but at what cost?

Sure, donations can pour in but after the surgery, who's going to foot for the physio, the expensive contraptions like leg braces and the likes? Call me a robot for all i care but i am certain that society will turn a blind eye - once the surgery is successful, that's it. the bucks will stop there. and the family will thus have to bear the financial burdens of such a costly decision.

I know that if I am a parent of that child, I will try my best to prolong my child's life with me...but then, what IF the child will merely lead a longer life of pain? Would it then be considered merciful instead to just live with the child's condition and spend as much time as possible before the inevitable? (As opposed to actively seeking out treatments and the likes to prolong the child's life further?)

One can and will argue that this is like saying end stage cancer patients should not go for chemo, or that hiv/aids patients should not have to have drugs to prolong their lives. How about no? That's unfair - it's like comparing an apple to say an orange.

Urgh, moral ethical dilemma.

Obviously I am ill-equipped and frankly lazy to think further about this issue and look into this further. What is your take though?

Would you donate to this cause or would you like me, step back and choose not to?
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I have been utterly neglecting my poor DW accounts - heck, i haven't written a blog entry in ages. Well, to sum things up:

1) LJ is now more tolerable after LJ SG heard us and allowed us to opt out of the ridiculous blogshop home page. WOOHOO. Old habits die hard so I've been on LJ still. Hey, my fav comms have yet to make a move. :S *looks at omona, miracle, hug, jaeho_detox/complex, sulu_chekov etc*

2) I need to save up and get myself an internet enabled phone. Turns out it's likely gonna be stay in for 7 whole days. dear god, help me. me. 7 days with a bunch of boys ain't all that cranked up to me. *shudders* i mean, as pretty as some of their bodies or faces are (ok, i am of course using the word VERYVERYVERY liberally here) they aren't...well, tumblr worthy. At most, they'll end up on those local sg guys tumblr site things. Yeah, I've stumbled into a few. :S To see familiar faces there, let's just say i need bleach. TONS of it.

3) family update! so...things are still at a standstill somewhat. although my uncle's wife has started the ball rolling by asking for a divorce...BUT backtracking and now wanting her kids. Oh and interestingly, with or without the divorce, their house has to be sold REAL soon because he hasn't been paying for anything at all. I kinda pity his kids but hey, I'm not gonna go any deeper into this fugly mess. You know how they say marriage is about two families being united intead of two individuals? I feel it's so true.

4) i have officially applied for uni. D: i just hope things turn out the way i want them to be. Oh, in the end i gave up on ntu's bio.

5) i'm gonna try to extend my contract until end july. cos i'm actually kinda enjoying my job. other than the occasional bad bads where i screw up my invoices (dear god, please let that day be a fluke. no more similar days. >.<)...everything's going well i suppose.

Nothing else to update on. Still having writer's block.
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Rushing this because I wanna do this befor the year ends.

2011 has been a year of crazy ups and downs - a true emotional rollercoaster for me. From the passing of loved ones, to completing conscription, to even being in close vicinity to idol stars. I'd rather look back and remember on the positive but that's impossible. Without the downs in my life, I wouldn't cherish what I have.

As the drums beat, ushering in the new year, let us remember and reflect how 2011 has been a year of Change. From the Arab Spring to the passing of several dictators. Lives were lost in the hopes of a better future.

They say 2012 will bring the apocalypse and many people are so worried. Why do so? Realise that you rarely get a second chance in life. Live life fully. Don't make excuses. Do it - it's what I'm going to force myself to do. No use worrying and overthinking. One step at a time.

I just want to thank everyone for being there for me in 2011, teaching and guiding me and accompanying me on my journey. Thank you for everything.

May this coming new year bring all of us closer (hopefully). May it be a better year of greater acceptance and recognition, of sweeping positive changes for the better, a year of breakthroughs, a year for reconciliations, a year where dreams and hopes get fulfilled. May 2012 be a blessed year for everyone.

Rmb, I'm at DW now. kekeke.

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I've been resisting migrating to Dreamwidth for the mere reason that I dislike change. Hey, I'm a Taurus and we don't like change. However, LJ has seriously gone to hell with the latest change. And thus I finally decided to switch.

Gonna start moving ALL of my fics here first so it's going to take awhile.

EDIT: OMG, they have a feature called import? Ok, DW is a dream.
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I'm moving to virginangelic.dreamwidth because this new lj sucks balls. seriously.
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Forget Him.

Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss, his warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember he has someone new
Forget him as they play your song
Remember how you cried all night long
Forget how close you two once were
Remember he has chosen her
Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh, forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, it's past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember that he's gone forever
Forget him.

- Author Unknown

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Wrote a short piece after I found out about Any Winehouse. I guess you only appreciate someone only when they're gone - I cannot help but think how true that is. She had an amazing gift and she shared her light with the world. Thank you Amy Winehouse. Rest in Peace wherever you wish to be.

Title: Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow?
Rating: R
Summary: A slice of a dying star's final moments.
Warning: Mentions of drug use, vulgarities.
Author's Note: The following story unravelled as I heard Amy Winehouse's tracks and covers. Inspired by the lady herself but not really based on her. Don't sue but i will if you plagiarize. Lol. Just read and enjoy. Leave a review if you can please? Thank you!

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Title: “나 가거든” (If I leave)
Inspired by: You've Fallen for Me Episode 3
Pairing: Kiyeong/Soomyung
Rating: R
Summary: Sometimes you gotta do what you've gotta do. Unbetaed as usual.
Warnings: Some vulgarities, m/m, mentions of sex but non-graphic! Rated R to be on the safe side.
A/N: Can someone just review this? It's been what? 2 years of non-writing and then this strikes. I could barely sleep.
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"Ki-yeong ah, fighting!" )
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It's utterly belated, considering I ended my conscription oh, I don't know...last week. LJ cut before we continue yeah?

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Today, went out with a friend I met during my medic course. We talked about cases, bitched about work, shared about our future and our goals before we finish our dang conscription. Perhaps it's telling that when we were talking about past friendships, I shared this:

"Sometimes I feel like I'm a piece of driftwood. When the tides of time comes, I move off - sometimes leaving a part of me, othertimes, taking a part of others with me but I continue to move on. I can barely stay stuck."

And I guess it is true. Even later, when we met up with the whole group, I feel so damn fucking alienated (what's new?). And while they were laughing, I was contemplating how to disappear. And briefly toyed with the idea of well...going for eternity via shot to the head; which thankfully I have no access for. I am rather impulsive. Let's put it that way - not the first time the idea has struck me.

I wonder if I'm back to being the depressive bag that I was back when I was 12 or maybe it's just that time of the month or perhaps it's because the super moon coming or something. *shrugs*

I need to stop thinking too much as well. But seriously, I think it's doable. The whole disappearing thing. I'm going to experiment with it - figure out if anyone realised. I highly doubt it. I can just switch my phone off, delete my online persona. But at the same time, I don't want it to be permanent. More temporal. Weird huh? If I were to deactivate my emails, can I reactivate them back? What about facebook? Hmm...
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2010's finally gone and I'm hoping this new year's going to be a better year ahead for me. I've definitely been neglecting my lj, my f-list and I haven't been writing anything at all for months now. I'm not going to declare my new year's resolution (I have none- preemptive measure and all) but I really cannot wait for my next day off so I can actually sleep in. Shall update with a proper post then hopefully.


Dec. 1st, 2010 11:41 pm
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Lest anyone thinks I'm dead, I've just been a tad busy. Shall update when I can find the time to actually think my words through. God, Life hasn't been a bed of roses lately. Mayhaps my spending habits are largely to blame. Which is why I've gotten my 2011 resolution ready!

AFTER SS3, no more showcases/concerts. No matter what. (exceptions: if dbsk gets back together as 5, if ss501 comes as a set...otherwise no. Just no.)

I guess it still needs some finetuning here and there. Oh and today's world aid's day. pls dun be ignorant - they are people with feelings too.

That is all for now.
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I'll admit it right here, right now. I have been twice blessed and I guess after such a high, the fall's...not pretty. Haha. I shall try my best kay?

My life revolves around Kpop and Kdrama so much, it scares me sometimes. But not gonna change it one bit. I think. ).
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I've to get this off my chest.
It's been on my mind for ages and now...
it's time for the world to know....

I ship KURT MIKE SO EFFIN HARD it's affecting my....enjoyment of certain fics. I need to stop being so obsessive over mindless trivial frivolities like OTPs.

Why can't I be obsessive with school like I do with OTP.
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I wonder if I should start tagging all my rants. Maybe one day...

Anyways, my life's been proceeding as it should - at a sluggish pace, considering the stage at which I am at right now. Went for my newborn nephew's circumcision yesterday. Yes, not the ceremony - the actual procedure. Watching it had given me mixed feelings. Yes, I was thinking of ethical issues while I was there being a part of it. I feel a tad terrible, especially when the babe cried.

But I really really freaked out when the doctor did the injection because there was blood and well, since I'm biologically a boy (male, man, whatever. Same thing.) I winced. I couldn't even see the actual cutting part - I just shut my eyes but that somehow made things worse. SNIP SNIP SNIP.


It REALLY REALLY makes me think hard whether or not I should go down the biomedical path or not.

Thinking of a university course is killing me. Architecture? Horticulture? Biological sciences? Biomedical? English/Lit? Psych/Socio?

Still racking my brains figuring out what to apply for, where. Things are different now then they were two years back. Seriously, why can't I just go for a liberal arts degree programme? Oh yeah, cos I'm dirt poor. (Well, not that well-off to be precise, this is my rant so I can exaggerate a little bit right?) Doesn't help that my dad may be out of a job soon, considering his company lost some major contract and is already laying off/firing staff. Not that he didn't foresee this but the employment market is rubbish now. And at his age, it'll be a miracle if he manages to even secure a job.

And relatives around my age/hierachy level are getting married/engaged left right centre. Don't even mention attachment. My uncles keep bugging me about 'that girl we saw you that day' (And I have NO clue which girl because yeah...I have a LOT of female friends.) My grandmother? I'm just avoiding her - doubt she'll read this anyways. Doesn't help that she's been having weird mood swings and is insisting that I show myself soon. Doesn't help at all when I just found out that some of my relatives are waiting to matchmake me. And not to mention the eldest grandchild will be getting engaged. My sister's dating some guy online (as usual). So the immediate hierachy?

1) Soon to be engaged
2) Me.
3) Dating
4) Married
5, 6, 7...) Dating...i think. Or was it dated? Whatever.

Can I scream now? I just wanna crawl in a hole and hide until I'm 70 or something so no one would question my choices. I mean seriously people, can't we all have modern thinking? Marriage isn't all that important. ARGH!!!

And I need to seriously kick myself for just not being able to write again, despite the plethora of muses. T.T


Apr. 17th, 2010 05:47 pm
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This past week has been one wonderful blend of meeting familiar faces and catching up. Had a new guy at work today who I do believe is close to perfection - by that I meant, an awesome colleague. Then again, my standards of perfection has dropped dramatically by several notches having met a certain somebody. *rolls eyes* Haha. Work is like a dream now. Okay, more like a pseudo-nightmare.

Had lunch with Lim and Charlie sometime back and even while I'm half-nodding to sleep (much to my chagrin), somehow, we managed to discuss the possibility of vampires. And we came up with a rather crazed hypothesis on how vampires can develop though it eludes me now. I just remember something about vampires being able to photosynthesize in a way (by indirect sunlight/moonlight) thus not needing to breathe; hence the living corpse association. And the reason why they require blood could possibly be due to plasma being the 'nutrient' that they need to replenish. And let's not even go into the existence of spirits. Just the mere thought is enough to kill me. Goodness, we spent goodness knows how long trashing out our theories.

If you're creeping back, sorry to have perturbed you.

Was supposed to go for the Bugis Fame Flashmob but due to late proceed call, I missed the entire thing by 5 minutes. Missed out on all the fun. BUT at least I finally met Yoshi face to face. And Karen and Tin and Jun after so long! (Though I'm sorry for just stoning away and not participating in any convos. Then again, I don't talk business. Have no acumen.)

Today was just freaking fantastic. I mean come on, PBMA!!! Haha. FINALLY met Zaki after what? 4 years? Though I just cannot believe how people can forget him. I mean, hello? Sure, the guy's changed physically (lost his baby fat) AND grew his fringe but no major difference to me. And I realised just how comfy Fariq is as a seat when four guys had to squeeze at the back of Amirul's car.

And then we played a rather weird but fun session of floorball. Or attempted to anyways. It was just lovely to see so many familiar faces! off to nap.

Oh and Nat! I RECEIVED YOUR LOVE! I'm on the hunt for a suitable one for you so please be patient kay? Love ya lots!
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Insomnia strikes again - then again, as Viki made me realise earlier today, "You don't see the sunlight either." (When we were somehow discussing patterns. Of what, I shan't say. Confidential stuff. *snorts*)

Hence, the reason for this incredibly weird rant! Blame twitter.

Blame twitter! )
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Considering it's oh...13 days OVER DUE, happy new year to all.

Okay, having done that, 2010 has so far been smooth-sailing with minor blips along the way. I'm NOT getting involved in weird pseudo-family problems, I've actually started writing (all thanks to Bibi!) and I think that's about it. Work so far has been I can only hope for better things to come this turn of the post-noughties but I highly doubt it. BUT 2010 looks set to be jam-packed with weddings and 21st birthday celebrations.

Being legally recognised as an adult in society may seem like a huge deal to a LOT of my peers but somehow, I just don't see the need to go all out. I think it's likely that I'm just going to the orphanage and offload cash or gifts or something. AND then out at the old folks home. I'm still figuring things out but yeah, no party. Then again, the LAST time I had a 'party', it was...eons ago. Hah - let's family forgot my 16th, my 18th was oh...forgettable. And the  last time I had a cake was before I got enlisted. Yes, I think I'm the only one who gets Enlistment Cake courtesy of my ever lovable Rabbit Crew. ilu girls so so so much!

Urgh test rant. )
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Life...has been well I would say Life. There's always those little ups and downs which I can elaborate much later if I choose to. Doubt there's anyone online who'll be willing to talk about this so hey, I figured I might as well blog about it.

While reading this mindblowingly good break-up fic about my new OTP in Star Trek (in my memories. Slash - I don't read anything else...mostly), I had this epiphany. Just realised why I never want to fall in love. God, this is going to sound awkward and weird but gotta get it off my chest. I think it's because I'm a coward when it comes down to it.

Kinda reminds me of a quote Bibi once sent me:

"You reject romantic notions because of matrimonial ties yet you reject matrimonial ties because of it."

Haha, Bibi and her random quotes that never fail to make my day and make me think. God, I suddenly feel so exposed after writing this but this shall remain!

I shall go to sleep now because in oh...twelve hours time I have to go back and do a rehearsal. Why do people NOT tell me about such stuff ahead of time? I have NO idea what to wear now, let alone what to perform. T.T I've forgotten the full Nobody dance steps. Bleh.

And SBS Gayo was effin amazing. Alright, I gotta sleep now but whoa revelation.


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