Nightmare...

I can't believe it. Normally, I wouldn't remember a dream but right after listening to Hug on Chunji, I remembered a tremendously horrendous nightmare I had yesterday.

I dreamt that...

Jaejoong died in a road accident.

He was in a black car, it happened at night and there was lots of blood.

And I remember somehow I was in a DBSK press meeting and they were saying that DBSK has to continue.

I was crying like mad and thinking, 5-1 = 0.

And I woke up right after that.

Sigh...I think I'm just worried. After all, the fortune teller had a very bad forecast for him for this year. "Jaejoong is to avoid getting into any vehicles in the month of October" (or something along those lines)

I pray hard this isn't some sort of a premonition. It would really tear me apart if this happened for real. Already I was close to breaking down when I found out about the SuJu accident and I wasn't functioning well for like three days, glued to Soompi for updates and such.

And my worse fears are coming true...

I've counted down the days and well...

I'll miss the last two episodes of my current must watch drama The Devil (Lucifer as KBS world has tagged it...Mah wang as I call it as not to offend some sensitive people).

I wanna smack my head on the desk and tear out my hair.

I just want to cry.

 *goes into corner and curls up and cries*